Love is Like a Violin The Music MaY Stop NoW N Then BuT the Strings Remain Forever

I just returned from Bangkok.
the things that were being sold there weren't as cheap
as what i expected it to be.
We went to the weekend market and i saw alot of cute little puppies.
one of them reminded me of my pet dog which i used to have.
How i missed it......
Wat i enjoyed most wasnt the shopping but was being able
to be with my dear. He took great care of me. He will hold my hand tight tight especially when we were walking along the busy streets.
On the day of departure, i felt very sad...
cuz we will have to return back to our own house.
the feeling is like... We are going to be Separated...
Finally i couldn't control my tears anymore, and i cried on the plane
before it landed on the Singapore Airport.
I really cant bear to part with Dear...
How i wish i can go back to those days in Bangkok whereby Dear and me can be together everyday. BE it day or night.... Those days really makes me feel that he is Totally Mine...
I finally realised that i am becoming more and more reliant on him
and that i really cant do without him...

Love is like a Crystal....
It needs to be well taken care of... or else... it willl leave
a crack on it..
Juz like being in love....
It is easy to start a Relationship, but, Love is very fragile...
it is not easy to Maintain, and can be Destroyed easily if it's
not maintained properly...
One need to have Patience in order to keep the relationship going on and on.....
Thou Mutual respect between each other is needed, but....
if one of the party has a bad temper, unneccesary arguments will
still appear.....
Instead, if one of the party has a Good Patience, whatever problem that arises will be solved without any involvment of arguments...
At times, our heart might tells us to think positively, but, it is always our brain that tells us to think negatively....
On the whole, one has to think twice before doing anything...
Especially where Relationships is concerned....

today i got 2 surprise from my dear....
initially, he told me that the present that he gave me for
our anniversary gift is also considered as a christmas as well...
so... i tot i wont be receiving any christmas gift from him.

he told me that today he will meet me in the evening after work,
but... nvr did i expect that he would msg me in the afternoon and told me that he will meet me 2hours later.....
I was very happy...

after we met, he told me that there is somebody that i noe waiting for me at his house.He then told me that this "somebody" has been staying at his house for 2 weeks liao... juz that i did not see that "somebody" only. i kept asking who that person was, he juz won't tell me......
when we reached his house, he told me to find that mystery fren.
i refused to and played with his dog.
nvr would i expect that Dear actually took out a Big Classic Pigglet
and gave it to me... it was indeed a surprise for me.... i felt so delighted.... i'm so touched by these surprises that he had given me....
I'm very grateful for all the surprises that Dear had planned for me.

Sat i juz couldn't get to contact my Dear that night.
At first i tot he might be sleepin thats why did not call me.... but... till late at night he still did not cal me.
i dunno why..... i felt uneasy and started calling him... yet he did not ans..
that night, i was unable to sleep well....
the next day, i called again, when he ans.... i felt so relieved...
no words can explain how i feel....
probably... i was being too worried liao...
actually.... i dun think its wise for me to behave like this...
i muz learn to be dependent....
really dunno wats got onto me... in the past, towards my ex....
i'm always very dependent.... will not be bothered at all whether got call me or din..
but.... now, towards Dear.... i juz cant be as dependent as i'm used
to be......
Haiz....... i felt sooooo.......useless.......
really hope that i will not become a burden to HIM...

It seems as thou Dear and me just became steadies..
I still remembered when we just started, days flew past very slowly.
It seems like i had to wait for a long time before we can cele our 1mth anniversary.....

But, never have i expected.... We now already gone steady for 6mths liao....... DEar gave me two surprises... and i liked the presents he gave me....
Anyway, i liked all the presents that he gave me.....

As for me, i had already prepared the present a month ago. i Remembered i was really looking forward to finishing it and give it to him... yet, i had to wait till we 6th months anniversary then can give him... heehee, the present was finally given to him liao..

It was a Sat night. Dearie and me went clubbing without telling my
Dear. Actually i was intending to surprise him, and I even told his friend not to let him noe.
Haiz... Yet, his GODDIE GOOD FRIEND betrayed me.....

That night most of us, esp the guys drank alot...
My Dearie was drunk, as for my Dear.....Hmmmm.. I feel that he was a bit sei lor...

As we were waiting for the cab, Dear went to find his friends...
Dearie was sitting down and resting...
Then i saw a guy lying down, he wore the same coloured shirt as my dear... I tot that was him and i walked over...
The girl that was taking care of him told me that my dear is inside.
I went to find him and i saw him arguing with the policeman.One of Dear's friend was with him, the others were watching outside.
There were two policeman, A Chinese and A Malay.
The malay one was better...
The Chinese policeman was quite fierce and unreasonable.. i got a shock when i saw the Policeman holding my Dear's ID... I was so worried that he will take down his particulars... BUt luckily, he didn't.
Thou, Dear wasn't in the wrong, but, i still drag him away and told him to stop arguing with the policeman.
Whew!!! Luckily nothing happened.... i really cant imagine what would have happened if i did not go Clubbing that night or if i did not walk over to find him.

yippee! my dear is finally back.....
i'm glad that he is back safe and sound... hee hee
time flies quite fast... soon it will be our 6 months anniversary liao.
really looking forward for that day to arrive. hee hee

haiz..... i'm still sick.
got sore throat and bad cough..
my voice sounds very "sexy".... hee hee

my Dear still hasn't return yet. looks like he tomorrow then will return liao........
i'm looking forward to receive his msg and his call.....

I.. really miss him..................

i'm sick again....
few days ago, i got very bad sore throat. But luckily it got better
the next day....
after i had more or less recovered from sore throat, i started
having cough... the cough juz did not get better...
instead.. it got worse and had even affected my voice...
my throat is now very painful and got phlegm as well...
hopefully i can regain back my voice soon otherwise....
i will not be able to speak to my dear when he returns....

dEar called me at 2plus this morning,,,,
but, i was in deep sleep so did not hear the phone ringing...

why he called??? cuz... hee hee his ship got not enough patrol liao
so they had to return back to base to fil up the tank.

hOW i know?? he sms me at 4am.. Dear told me he called me and
that he is leaving soon..

I immediately called his hp... luckily he answered the phone...
I was very very happy to be able to hear his voice.. Hee hee

I really miss him alot.....
thou we only talk for a while.. but i'm still happy...
Haiz...... gotta wait for another 3-4 days more for him to return.....

Dear has gone sailing for 3days liao.
reaLLy miss him......
haiz...... dunno when will he return..
all i noe is he will either return on fri or sat....
but most importantly is that he will return safe and sound..
i will be looking forward to either receive his msg or receive his call
on either fri or sat...

i felt very very very sad....
recently, an idiot said very very nasty things to me that not only hurt me but also hurt my PRIDE !!!

That idiot disgraced me infront of many pple......
I will never ever forget what had happened and how i was humiliated.
Neither will i forgive that idiot!!!

till now, whenever i think of that day, tears will just flow naturally...
never never in my life... i felt so humiliated!!!!

yippee! today can finally see my dear liao. so happy.
i'm really am looking forward to seeing him.
maybe because, lately i have been feeling sick, thats why it made me miss him even more.. hee hee

but....... the sad thing is... he will be going saling again next week..
haiz.... wont be able to see him for the whole of next week liao...

Anyway, today can see him.. I'm happy liao... hee hee

So sian.... i have been sick with different kinds of sickness..
first is my tummy..... I have been having tummy aches for a few weeks liao.... at times, it aches in the middle of the night... so painful that it woke me up.

then, its my dear skin, it made me felt very itchy. At first i thought it was just mosquito bites. but, lately, i went to see the doc, doc says I got sensitive skin.

worst, i got a big ulcer in my mouth. so painful that i can only use one side of my mouth to eat...

aiyoh, all these sickness had made me felt so tired....

lately alot of things have happened...
Got sad things and got happy things...
The sad thing was.... haiz.. someone lately told me alot of things which hurt me deeply. I was so sad and the worst thing was that i had to pretend nothing happen when i was at home or at work...
But, luckily i got my Dear and Dearie mei mei.
Their consolations had really helped me alot... Thou, it is not an easy thing to forget.... but, with them by my side, i'm sure i can get over it as time goes by....
The happy thing was... Dear bought me alot of things when he returned from Indonesia few weeks ago....
Last sat, we went clubbing. A lady took a pic of me and my dearie.
Just as i was intending to ask her to help Dear and me take pic, she was nowhere to be found.... I was quite disappointed, luckily, i managed to see her again... No words can expressed my happiness...